The Cure:
Disintegration (lyrics)
(1989)

"I think it's dark and it looks like rain" you said 
"And the wind is blowing like it's the end of the world" you said 
"And it's so cold it's like the cold if you were dead" 
And then you smiled for a second.

"I think I'm old and I'm in pain" you said 
"And it's all running out like it's the end of the world" you said 
"And it's so cold it's like the cold if you were dead" 
And then you smiled for a second

Sometimes you make me feel like I'm living at the edge of the world 
Like I'm living at the edge of the world 
"It's just the way I smile" you said

I've been looking so long at these pictures of you 
That I almost beleive that they're real 
I've been living so long with my pictures of you 
That I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel

Remembering you standing quiet in the rain 
As I ran to your heart to be near 
And we kissed as the sky fell in holding you close
How I always held close in your fear 
Remembering you running soft through the night 
You were bigger and brigther than the snow 
And screamed at the make-beleive screamed at the sky 
And you finally found all your courage to let it all go

Remembering you fallen into my arms 
Crying for the death of your heart 
You were stone white so delicate lost in the cold 
You were always so lost in the dark 
Remembering you how you used to be slow drowned 
You were angels so much more than everything 
Oh hold for the last time then slip away 
Quietly open my eyes but I never see anything

If only I had thought of the right words 
I could have hold on to your heart 
If only I'd thought of the right words 
I wouldn't be breaking apart 
All my pictures of you

Looking So long at these pictures of you 
But I never hold on to your heart 
Looking so long for the words to be true 
But always just breaking apart 
My pictures of you

There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more 
Than to feel you deep in my heart 
There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more 
Than to never feel the breaking apart 
All my pictures of you

I'm running out of time 
I'm out of step and closing down 
And never sleep for wanting hours the empty hours of greed 
And uselessly always the need to feel again 
The real belief of something more than mockery 
If only I could fill my heart with love

Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am home again 
Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am young again 
Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away I will always love you 
However long I stay I will always love you 
Whatever words I say I will always love you 
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am free again 
Whenever I'm alone with you 
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away I will always love you 
However long I stay I will always love you 
Whatever words I say I will always love you 
I will always love you

I'm so glad you came 
I'm so glad you remembered to see 
How we're endeding our last dance together 
Expectant too puctual but prettier than ever 
I really believed that this time it's forever

But older than me now more constant more real 
And the fur and the mouth and the innocence 
Turned to hair and contentment that hangs in abesement 
A woman now standing where once there was only a girl

I'm so glad you came 
I'm so glad you remembered 
The walking through walls in the heart of december 
The blindness of happiness of falling down laughing 
And I really believed that this time was forever

But christmas falls late now flatter and colder 
And never as bright as when we used to fall 
All this in an instant before I can kiss you 
A woman now standing were once there was only a girl

I'm so glad that you came 
I'm so glad you remembered to see 
How we're ending our last dance together 
Reluctantly cautiously but prettier than ever 
I really believed that this time it's forever

But Christmas falls late now flatter and colder 
And never as bright as when we used to fall 
And even if we drink I don't think we would kiss 
In the way that we did when the woman was only a girl

On candystripe legs spiderman comes 
Softly through the shadow of the evening sun 
Stealing past the windows of the blissfully dead 
Looking for the victim shivering in bed 
Searching out fear in the gathering gloom 
And suddenly! a movement in the corner of the room! 
And there is nothing I can do when I realise with freight 
That the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight

Quietly he laughs and shaking his head 
Creeps closer now closer to the foot of the bed 
And softer than shadow and quicker than flies 
His arms are all around me and his tongue in my eyes 
"Be still be calm be quiet now my precious boy don't struggle like that 
Or I will only love you more for it's much too late to get away 
Or turn on the light 
The spiderman is having you for dinner tonight"

And I feel like I'm being eaten by 
a thousand million shivering furry holes 
And I know that in the morning I will wake up in the shivering cold 
And the spiderman is always hungry ...

Oh it's opening time down on Fascination Street 
So let's cut the conversation and get out for a bit 
Because I feel it all fading and paling 
And I'm begging to drag you down with me 
To kick the last nail in 
Yeah I like you in that like I like you to scream 
But if you open your mouth 
Then I can't be responsible for quite what goes in 
Or to care what comes out 
So just pull on your hair 
Just pull on your pout 
And let's move to the beat like we know that it's over 
If you slip going under slip over my shoulder 
So just pull on your face just pull on your feet 
And let's hit opening time down on Fascination Street 

So pull on your hair pull on your pout 
Cut the conversation just open your mouth 
Pull on your face pull on your feet 
And let's hit opening time down on Fascination Street

You shatter me your grip on me a hold on me so dull 
It kills you stifle me infectious sense of hopelessness 
and prayers for rain
I suffocate I breathe in dirt and nowhere shines 
But desolate and drab the hours all spent on killing time again 
All waiting for the rain

You fracture me your hands on me a touch so plain 
So stale it kills you strangle me entangle me in hopelessness 
And prayers for rain 
I deteriorate I live in dirt and nowhere glows 
But drearily and tired the hours all spent on killing time again 
All waiting for the rain

Kiss me goodbye pushing out before I sleep 
Can't you see I try swimming the same deep water as you is hard 
"The shallow drowned lose less than we" 
You breathe the strangest twist upon your lips 
"and we shall be together ..."

"Kiss me goodbye bow your head and join with me" 
And face pushed deep reflections meet 
the strangest twist upon your lips
And dissapear the ripples clear 
and laughing break against your feet 
And laughing break the mirror sweet "so we shall be together ..."

"Kiss me goodbye" pushing out before I sleep 
It's lower now and slower now the strangest twist upon your lips 
But I don't see and I don't feel 
but tightly hold up silently my hands 
Before my fading eyes and in my eyes 
your smile the very last thing before I go ...

I will kiss you I will kiss you I will kiss you 
Forever on nights like this I will kiss you I will kiss you 
And we shall be together ...

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery the shameless kiss of vanity 
The soft and the black and the velvety up tight against the side of me 
And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed 
and run in thickening streams of greed 
As bit by bit it starts the need to just let go my party piece

Oh I miss the kiss of treachery the aching kiss before 
I feed the stench of a love for a younger meat 
and the sound that it makes 
When it cuts in deep the holding up on bended knees 
the addiction of duplicities 
As bit by bit it starts the need to just let go my party piece

But I never said I would stay to the end 
so I leave you with babies and hoping for frequency 
Screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy 
Screaming me over and over and over 
I leave you with photographs pictures 
of trickery stains on the carpet 
And stains on the scenery songs about happiness murmured in dreams 
When we both us knew how the ending would be ...

So it's all come back round to breaking apart again 
Breaking apart like I'm made up of glass again 
Making it up behind my back again 
Holding my breath for the fear of sleep again 
Holding it up behind my head again 
Cut in deep to the heart of the bone again 
Round and round and round and it's coming apart again 
over and over and over

Now that I know that I'm breaking to pieces 
I'll pull out my heart and I'll feed it to anyone 
Crying for sympathy crocodile cry for the love of the crowd 
And the three cheers from everyone dropping through sky 
Through the glass of the roof through the roof of your mouth 
Through the mouth of your eye through the eye of the needle 
It's easier for me to get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again

I never said I would stay to the end 
I knew I would leave you with babies and everything
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity 
Screaming me over and over and over 
I leave you with photographs pictues of trickerystains on the carpet 
And stains on the memory songs about happiness murmured in dreams 
When we both of us knew
How the end always is ...
How the end always is ...

Hey hey! just one more and I'll walk away 
All the everything you win turns to nothing today 
And I forget when to move when my mouth is this dry 
And my eyes are burstinghearts in a blood-stained sky 
Oh it was sweet it was wild and oh how we ...
I trembled stuck in honey honey cling to me so just one more 
Just one more go inspire in me the desire in me to never go home

Oh just one more and I'll walk away 
All the everything you win turns to nothing today 
So just one more just one more go
Inspire in me the desire in me to never go home

Hopelessly drift in the eyes of the ghost again 
Down on my knees and my hands in the air again 
Pushing my face in the memory of you again 
But I never know if it's real never know how I wanted to feel 
Never quite said what I wanted to say to you 
Never quite managed the words to explain to you 
Never quite knew how to make them beleivable 
And now the time has gone
Another time undone 
Hopelessly fighting the devil futility 
Feeling the moster climb deeper inside of me 
Feeling him gnawing my heart away hungrily 
I'll never lose this pain never dream of you again